Mommy's Night Out

    My in-laws came over to see Micaela they were so sweet to bring us a yummy lunch from the BBQ place we love. My friend Nancy was getting married today and although I RSVP'd for 2...we decided it was better for him to stay home with Micaela. My inlaw's would help while I was at the wedding. It was the first USC game of the season so it was going to be fun for them too. I got ready and was ready to leave. Micaela was crying so I was a bit nervous about leaving but they reassured me it would be ok. Leaving the house is such an ordeal...but I pumped and got at the door just in team.

 I arrived at the wedding and saw some high school friends. Nancy looked gorgeous and the venue was so fun! AT the reception I kept calling home and Dennis did not answer whic worried me so much. He sent me a few text messages. "Come home sooner than later," "She's really fussy," "She's sucking on my arm" That's when I decided to leave. I did not really even get to dance or eat anything. I left by 8pm worried as could be.

I arrived home and apparently it was complete disaster....Micki cried or 2 hours off and on. Pooped 4 times..twice in the bath. Dennis and my mom in law had the time from hell trying to make her feel better. I seriously felt so guilty!!! How could I leave my little baby to suffer so much...ugh. I just want to kiss and hold her even though she was sleeping in Daddy's arms by now.

Being a mommy has really changed everything for me. My priorities are completely different. Nothing matters more than being with my baby and Dennis. I dont really have a desire to go out or to drink. Im so happy just staying home and being silly with Dennis to try to make Micaela laugh... holding her while she nurses or just playing in the mirror together. It's crazy how much my life has changed.. And I'm loving it.